Self harm

I did it a few years later and I stopped but tonight I did it again. I just don't know why.. Ah. I took a razor blade out of a cheap shaving razor.. I don't wanna look like I fell in a bush or something because people tend to ask question. I find the scars on hands beautiful tho.

31.10.

Breakfast:
- egg (on butter)
- 1 half of a small hot dog sausage
- 1/4 of tomato

Snack:
- tangerine

Lunch:
-beef soup
- a little of pork
- a little of potato
- cabagge salad

Snack:
- tangerine

Dinner:
- cabbage salad

FUUUUUUCK, today was a mess. I had to eat because my family is at home :/ they are here tomorrow toooooooooooo i'm gonna die

Yay-.-

I actually made a new blog in september but now i can't go there so i have to go back to this one -.-

So I'm following a new diet:
Step 1: (One week)
* 1000 cals a day
* 100 crunches a day
* 2 hours running a week
Step 2: (One week)
* 500 cals a day
* If eaten more -> Vomit!
* 200 crunches a day
* 30 minutes swimming/cycling/skating/dancing a day
* Take weight loss pills ( I can't do that because of my heart..)
Step 3: (One week)
* 500 calories a day
* Vomit after every meal!
* 250 crunches a day
* 2 hours running a week
* 1 hour swimming/cycling/skating/dancing a day
Step 4:
live healthy forever

So I will post what I ate in the day. BYE BLOG